moonruona’s blog

It hurts, and the pain that comes with it is incomparable. Seeking validation might seem unhealthy, but there is absolutely nothing  wrong with it. It is hard to deal with emotions you thought you have control over. It is always difficult fathoming how you keep attracting the wrong people in your life or should i say you keep falling for the wrong people, because from a critical perspective they made it clear they are not into you, but choose to stay and see what happens. You choose to put yourself through emotional pain hoping they see your effort and probably change. Nothing is more mentally exhausting like trying to help people see your worth, it is like giving money to an ape, no matter how much it is, it will never see the value or need to have it, and if you insist it will trample upon it carelessly and eventually destroy it. Sometimes you think it is love, it's never love when it aches your heart, it's never love when it's not being reciprocated. Sometimes you think ...

It feels awkward sometimes to strongly have the urge to reach out to people who you think probably don't give a fly about you, it feels more awkward when you are an over-thinker. It is comforting having a random chat with someone you have stuff going on for. Sometimes it comes with zero expectations, it's majorly for the soothing feeling that comes with it.  Truth is nothing prepares you for adulthood. It gets overwhelming most times. Managing your emotions and how you process things in your head. Feeling all alone in a crowd should be a course to study. To be honest, That moment you feel like shutting the world out might seem depressing but it is just a mere response to mental stress. I want to believe we have all been there. Nothing prepares you for the aches rejection brings. Expectations are one thing that could get you messed up when not being met. To some people it feels like a sense of entitlement. If you ask me, feeling entitled is not a bad thing until it begins to com...