When Clarity Fades
The confusion that comes with uncertainty is beyond comprehension. Think back for a moment how different would your life have been if you had simply accepted the fate before you? Maybe in your job, your relationships, your career choices, or even your marriage.
Breaking free from a cycle you don’t even remember entering is one of the hardest puzzles to solve. You just want to get it right for once. I’ve read many books, and one of my favorites is Attitude Is Everything by Keith Harrell. It made me question whether my attitude was one of the forces holding me back. I however convinced myself it was and started working on how I approach and speak to people, which honestly helped in certain areas of my life. But let’s be honest I wanted more. I wanted to break free from financial and emotional struggles. And from what I’ve learned about people of wealth and influence, many of them appear saucy, arrogant, or even mean at least from my sentimental point of view.
Questioning yourself is natural. Doubting your ability isn’t fear. Feeling intimidated isn’t insecurity. They are unrecognized strengths forces our brains rarely acknowledge and society makes us believe are weakness.
Life is both easy and not easy. Success demands sacrifices that no one will tell you about except yourself. Every time life hits me hard, I remember my late father not because I expect him to save me, but because I try to imagine what my life would have been like if he were still alive easy i presume. It’s often easy to imagine what could have happened before today, yet terrifying to see beyond our fears especially when the walls we feel safe in already have visible cracks.
Tell me how can you ever get over heartbreak if you keep revisiting the past with your ex, the same person you swore never to meet again? Every time you feel sad, those good memories become your comfort zone. Ever wondered why, when life feels uncertain, you fall back into old habits just to escape reality? The question remains: what, or who, are you running from?
Let’s talk about how you crave solutions so badly, yet everything ends up as trial and error. Let’s also address the times when you had great ideas that could have eased your misery but you let life get in the way, creating unnecessary problems because of society’s standards and beliefs. You keep creating problems and inflicting pain on yourself due to past trauma, fear of abandonment, or fear of the worst that could happen. These fears shape how you judge people, it shapes how you interpret their intentions towards you, how you treat yourself, and how productive you become. They slow you down through procrastination and by letting others’ opinions dictate your choices, lifestyle, and decisions.
And yet, you cry blaming yourself at every chance you get, worrying about the life you could have had if only you hadn’t said yes to toxicity, the bare minimum, or a career that could sabotage your future all because you wanted the easy way out. You’ve been through so much, begging for crumbs, yet doing nothing to seize new opportunities because you’re afraid of being labeled an opportunist. You avoid asking for more , standing up for yourself because people might call you rude or toxic. You’re too busy being the, understanding, tolerating, “good person” while, in your eyes, the “bad ones” seem to win effortlessly.
If you cannot sacrifice the version of yourself that’s holding you back, then you’re not ready to reach your promised land. Success isn’t about working hard just to earn validation it’s about sacrificing yourself, the parts of you that resist growth.
Sometimes you’re not confused because you don’t know what to do you’re confused because you lack the courage to face reality and the version of you that craves change. Build your own strategy, and maybe one day you’ll be paid to teach it. In my defense, when you can’t find the kind of dress you like, design it or pay someone who can.
The only thing that gives me pride now is hope. The future may be uncertain, but it will eventually become the present after all.
Written by Moonlight Ruona Amreta

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